Russ - you can do whatever you decide you are going to do. I have complete faith in your ability to work through this, like you have all of the other challenges in your life. Your ability to surmount difficulties acts as a focus for me when I have to deal with my minor "speedbumps". Stay the course. There are a lot of people who love you - even if they aren't in Indiana.
R.I.P. Cyrano and Roxanne.